[My note: The author of this letter is an amazing America. You will always be welcome on my blog. ]
I have not been able to confirm the author of this letter
Written by a woman in New York. Think it echoes what most of us in New York
think and feel about the state of our country. After the letter was
published, the woman started receiving death threats.
Letter To The Red States:
Sorry, I try not to deluge people with my ramblings. But I had to write this
and, having written it, had to send it. Even though I don't know anyone I
can send it to (without alienating my Republican in-laws, who are the only
"middle country" people I know.)
I am writing this letter to the people in the red states in the middle of
the country -- the people who voted for George W. Bush. I am writing this
letter because I don't think we know each other.
So I'll make an introduction. I am a New Yorker who voted for John Kerry. I
used to live in California, and if I still lived there, I would vote for
Kerry. I used to live in Washington, DC, and if I still lived there, I would
vote for Kerry. Kerry won in all three of those regions.
Maybe you want to know more about me. Or maybe not; maybe you think you know
me already. You think I am some anti-American anarchist because I dislike
George W. Bush. You think that I am immoral and anti-family, because I
support women's reproductive freedom and gay rights. You think that I am
dangerous, and even evil, because I do not abide by your religious beliefs.
Maybe you are content to think that, to write me off as a "liberal" -- the
dreaded "L" word -- and rejoice that your candidate has triumphed over evil,
immoral, anti-American, anti-family people like me. But maybe you are still
curious. So here goes: this is who I am.
I am a New Yorker. I was here, in my apartment downtown, on September 11th.
I watched the Towers burn from the roof of my building. I went inside so
that I couldn't see them when they fell. I had friends who were inside. I
have a friend who still has nightmares about watching people jump and fall
from the Towers. He will never be the same. How many people like him do you
know? People that can't sit in a restaurant without plotting an escape
route, in case it blows up?
I am a worker. I work across the street from the Citigroup Center, which the
government told us is a "target" of terrorism. Later, we found out they were
relaying very old information, but it was already too late. They had given
me bad dreams again. The subway stop near my office was crowded with
bomb-sniffing dogs, policemen in heavy protective gear, soldiers. Now, every
time I enter or exit my office, all of my possessions are X-rayed to make
sure I don't have any weapons. How often are you stopped by a soldier with a
bomb-sniffing dog outside your office?
I am a neighbor. I have a neighbor who is a 9/11 widow. She has two
children. My husband does odd jobs for her now, like building bookshelves.
Things her husband should do. He uses her husband's tools, and the two
little girls tell him, "Those are our daddy's tools." How many 9/11 widows
and orphans do you know? How often do you fill in for their dead loved ones?
I am a taxpayer. I worked my butt off to get where I did, and so did my
parents. My parents saved and borrowed and sent me to college. I worked my
way through graduate school. I won a full tuition scholarship to law school.
All for the privilege of working 2,600 hours last year. That works out to a
50 hour week, every week, without any vacation days at all. I get to work by
9 am and rarely leave before 9 pm. I eat dinner at my office much more often
than I eat dinner at home. My husband and I paid over $70,000 in federal
income tax last year. At some point in the future, we will have to pay much
more -- once this country faces its deficit and the impossible burden of
Social Security. In fact, the areas of the country that supported Kerry --
New York, California, Illinois, Massachusetts -- they are the financial
centers of the nation. They are the tax base of this country. How much did
you pay, Kansas? How much did you contribute to this government you support,
Alabama? How much of this war in Iraq did you pay for?
I am a liberal. The funny part is, liberals have this reputation for living
in Never-Neverland, being idealists, not being sensible. But let me tell you
how I see the world: I see America as one nation in a world of nations.
Therefore, I think we should try to get along with other nations. I see that
gay people exist. Therefore, I think they should be allowed to exist, and be
treated the same as other people. I see ways in which women are not allowed
to control their own bodies. Therefore, I think we should give women more
control over their bodies. I see that people have awful diseases. Therefore,
I think we should enable scientists to try to cure them. I see that we have
a Constitution. Therefore, I think it should be upheld. I see that there
were no weapons of mass destruction in Iraq. Therefore, I think that Iraq
was not an imminent danger to me. It seems so pragmatic to me. How do you
see the world? Do you really think voting against gay marriage will keep
people from being gay? Would you really prefer that people continue to die
from Parkinson's disease? Do you really not care about the Constitutional
rights of political detainees? Would you really have supported the war if
you knew the truth, or would you have wanted to spend more of our money on
health care, job training, terrorism preparedness?
I am an American. I have an American flag flying outside my home. I love my
home more than anything. I love that I grew up right outside New York City.
I first went to the Statue of Liberty with my 5th grade class, and my mom
and dad took me to the Empire State Building when I was 8. I love taking the
subway to Yankee Stadium. I loved living in Washington DC and going on dates
to the Lincoln Memorial. It is because I love this country so much that I
argue with my political opponents as much I do.
I am not safe. I never feel safe. My in-laws live in a small town in Ohio,
and that town has received more federal funding, per capita, for terrorism
preparedness than New York City has. I take subways and buses every day. I
work in a skyscraper across the street from a "target." I have emergency
supplies and a spare pair of sneakers in my desk, in case something happens
while I'm at work. Do you? How many times a month do you worry that your
subway is going to blow up? When you hear sirens on the street, do you run
to the window to make sure everything is okay? When you hear an airplane, do
you flinch? Do you dread beautiful, blue-skied September days? I don't know
a single New Yorker who doesn't spend the month of September on tip-toes,
superstitiously praying for rain so we don't have to relive that beautiful,
blue-skied day.
I am lonely. I feel that we, as a nation, have alienated all our friends and
further provoked our enemies. I feel unprotected. Most of all I feel
alienated from my fellow citizens, because I don't understand what you are
thinking. You voted for a man who started a war in Iraq for no reason,
against the wishes of the entire world. You voted for a man whose lack of
foresight and inability to plan has led to massive insurgencies in Iraq,
where weapons are disappearing into the hands of terrorists. You voted for a
man who let Osama Bin Laden escape into the hills of Afghanistan so that he
could start that war in Iraq. You voted for a man who doesn't want to let
people love who they want to love; doesn't want to let doctors cure their
patients; doesn't want to let women rule their destinies. I don't understand
why you voted for this man. For me, it is not enough that he is personable;
it is not enough that he seems like one of the guys. Why did you vote for
him? Why did you elect a man that lied to us in order to convince us to go
to war? (Ten years ago you were incensed when our president lied about his
sex life; you thought it was an impeachable offense.) Why did you elect a
leader who thinks that strength cannot include diplomacy or international
cooperation? Why did you elect a man who did nothing except run away and hide
on September 11?
Most of all, I am terrified. I mean daily, I am afraid that I will not
survive this. I am afraid that I will lose my husband, that I will never
have children, that I will never grow old and watch the sunset in a backyard
of my own. I am afraid that my career -- which should end with a triumphant
and good-natured roast at a retirement party in 2035 -- will be cut short by
an attack on me and my colleagues, as we sit sending emails and making phone
calls one ordinary afternoon. Is your life at stake? Are you terrified?
I don't think you are. I don't think you realize what you have done. And if
anything happens to me or the people I love, I blame you. I wanted you to
know that.
"From what we get, we can make a living; what we give, however, makes a
life." - Arthur Ashe
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